I made straight As all semester yet I got a fucking F in English how the fuck did that happen and I made good grades and worked hard but some how I got shit grades I got bitched at for and idk how it happens wth I am so pissed off at the moment life just sucks for me right now it just sucks
Over and over again I try to draw her beautiful form but it never comes out right she is to elegant for art to express it even leanardo deventchi couldn’t show her with any truth to how wounderful she is and how gorgeous her smile and her form and her everything truely is for she is absolutely amazing and art can’t express it and she dosent even see it in herself but I do
Why the hell can I not forget her why cant I just get her out of my head he beauty and her smile fill my mind all the time and a thought go’s through my mind why why did I let her get away what did I do wrong why can’t I feel her touch or hear her laugh why did she get do quiet why did she not let me help her and be there for her in her time of need and why do I love her even after the shit she has put me though why why why do I do this to myself I fucking love her
I have to ask if you understand how I feel about you mariam do you even get what my heart feels do you know how much I wish and long for your company it’s like I can’t get over you and you totally hate me you wish I was dead and I just want to please you so if I were to carve your name into my neck and bleed my love out would you be happy would you no you wouldn’t and I would be a selfish asshole and I would never be what I want I would be nothing literally nothing but dust but that’s why I wouldn’t do it it causes nothing but heart ake and pain. I want to hold your hand by the sun set when I’m 80.
